I’ve been angry a lot lately. Angry with myself and others. Several of my previous blog posts deal with how stupid some things are. Most of them were written on impulse, just as a way of letting out the fire.
I open up Facebook and see how lame most of the status updates are. Then the stuff some people do on Facebook and Twitter. And in real life. There are loads of things there to get angry about. Lame and stupid things people do. Lots of reasons to get angry with your parents, your friends, everyone around. I nearly lost a few friends.
I am angry at myself for being what I am. I even cut myself using a blade several times. I cannot forgive myself for the things I’ve done. I’ve acted lame and stupid. There’s no turning back. The scars remain.
Perhaps anger is something I will have to accept and live with. There’s nobody to heal the wounds. There’s nobody to talk to. Several people I trusted previously and talked these stuff with turned out to be less trustworthy or useless.
False pretense is something I will have to learn. To pretend that I’m fine. Coz there’s no other way.